Thankful Thursday

If you’ve been reading my blog you know what I’m thankful for! But I’m thankful for some other things too:

My hubby. He’s so amazing. Some days I would like to ring his neck. I know I’m probably the only woman that feels that way. But then most days he’s so funny and charming and downright impossible to live without. I love him so much and it’s been so cool to see him this week. As my sister would describe it, “He’s just glowing!”. This pregnancy is something that I was afraid would send him over the deep end but he’s so overjoyed and that’s brings great joy to my heart. Thank you Lord for Hubby.

Princess. She’s so amazing too. She’s 17 people and she is the most precious young lady I’ve ever met. And I know I’m biased but it’s so true. She loves Jesus so much and allows Him to shine through her. She is so excited for this baby. I think she’s most excited because she is so happy for me. She has witnessed the many tears and struggles and heartache over the past 5 years. And I’m so thankful to have her in my life. Not only do I consider her a wonderful step-daughter I consider her to be one of my closest friends. Thank you Lord for Princess.

Prince. He’s really struggling right now. His mom and step-dad are separated and it’s been really tough on him. He’s such a wonderful young man, trying to find his way in this world. Please pray for him as goes through this. And thank you Lord for Prince.

Angel. Our precious baby girl. She makes us laugh out loud every day now. We tell her, “you’re so weird!”. And we say it with all love. She talks and laughs and makes the funniest faces and noices, it’s just so amazing. We’re so very thankful that the Lord brought her to us. His timing is perfect and she is perfect for our family. Thank you Lord for Angel.

And of course. Last but not least. … Oh man, I was going to ask Hubby this morning what our “name” will be for the little one inside me. Well, we’ll think of a name. For those who have never struggled to conceive it’s impossible for you to understand the feelings that I’m experiencing. You pray for something for so long and for me, I had come to peace..total peace, that I would never conceive. And so to conceive totally out of the blue when we weren’t expecting it is just so… weird I guess. There’s no words to describe it. It almost makes me feel whole. And when you can’t do something that you feel you were made to do you feel like you’re not doing your part. You’re not whole. You’re not complete. Even after adopting Angel, I felt like a mom 100% but my barren womb still cried out. Thankfully the Lord had brought me to a place of peace. I’m kind of rambling, I guess. I’m just so very thankful. No matter what happens, I’m thankful that I’ve been able to carry this little one for 6 weeks. And each day I’ll give the Lord a shout of praise.

And to all my dear friends who haven’t been able to conceive. I’m so thankful for you. You were the first I wanted to share my news with. But at the same time my heart ached to tell you because I’ve been in the place where someone has told me they were pregnant. And as happy as I am for them, my barren womb would cry out, “Why not me, Lord?”. So I want to tell you that I’m thankful for you. In so many ways. You alone can understand the pain I have endured for what has seemed like a hundred years. And I pray for you and continue to ache for you. I hope that if you haven’t already experienced the peace of Christ that passes all understanding that you would some day. I love you friends.

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