Day: June 14, 2012

Tears from heaven

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{Words cannot express our gratitude for your prayers and support during this time. Please know that while we aren’t able to reply to every comment or email, we are reading every single one. We are so thankful for your outpouring of love and for those who are able to share memories of our parents.}

{If you are new to my blog, you may wonder why in the world I’m blogging during this time. If you are not new to my blog, you know that writing is therapeutic for me. And now every morning when I wake up and realize this isn’t a dream, I ask my mom what I’m supposed to do. And she says to me, “Go to God’s Word.” And then she says, “Write.” So I will go to God’s Word and I will write as we walk through this journey. Thank you for walking with us.}

We sat on the rocks along the river. The police continued to tell us that we could leave, that there was nothing else for us to do. But we weren’t leaving. Not while our parents were still on the boat.

We were there for almost four hours. As soon as we got there it started to rain. Not a hard rain, just a light drizzle on and off. One of the officers complained about it starting to rain. But I was thankful for the rain because I imagined it was Jesus weeping along with us.

But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness. Psalm 86:15

While we cried out to God, asking Him why He would choose to take them both in this way, we also trust in the faith that my parents clung to as they lived each day.  That our God is compassionate, loving and faithful.  And so I believe with all that is within me, that God was holding us there, and crying tears for us.

When we finally did leave, as we drove out-of-town, it began to rain a little bit heavier. My brother drove and I sat in the front seat, looking at the sky, wondering what we do next.  The rain came down against the window and again, I thanked Jesus for His tears. For crying with us. For showing us that He was there.

I took this picture.

It wasn’t until later that I looked at it and saw that while I was taking a picture of the rain on the window, in the background there was a church. A cross.

Jesus, we know you are with us. We know that you love us and have compassion on us and are weeping with us. Thank you for your tears from heaven. Hold us now. Help us to cling to the Cross. The Cross that allows us to have the hope of heaven.